glass....and a half of moscato...check
altered state of mind..check
Ive realized most of my blogs are written in a time of despair or anger or whatever....but never in a time of contentment or a self powered moment....
This moment is good
at risk of souding vain....i am feeling very blessed right now. Suz and i were talking the other night on the couch, and refreshingly, we were reminding each other of our desires and wishes for the future we use to have..we would day dream about living in chicago, having a exciting life meeting all these different, cultured, amaZing people, having steady jobs that pay great...cocktails.sometimes 1 too many. that "perfect" chocolate (duh) boytoys, racey nights..and early mornings..;)that group of gals that AWAYS have ur back and stories. lots.of.stories.
Thats really not that far from what we have.
Maybe i should speak for myself...but thats the way i feel. Of course i have days where i hate my job, hate the city (parking tickets) and when that perfect choco bf is...well just how men are._________.(fill in blank accordingly) BUT. i really have no MAJOR complaints :)
Its just soo much easier to write when times are bad. Its funny how i question myself on sounding stuck up by writting this, but i never questioned sounding too depressed or bitter in the other posts. I can thank that thought to this book im reading about womens happiness...butch?maybe a little...lol i bought it at a random garage sale in the summer. Buy 1 get 1. and its had this HUGE affect on me.
Im moving out on my own in about 2 months. At first i was scared to death about it..but the more i think about it, im really looking forward to it. I think its going to be a really good thing for me. I am looking forward to really getting to know things about myself that i dont know yet. Ive always lived with ppl that were pretty particular about how the place is decorated so i never really put in my opinion cuz i dont care that much so itll be interresting to see how i would decorate a place. Ive already started furniture shopping :) i def. go for an antique look....
So, as of now...thinigs are just good :) Im enjoying this place I am in...very explorative and self inquisitive place. No pressure to get married or have kids....the only pressure i am putting on myself (in that sense) is that i AM taking a vacation. jamaica..spain..cant decide. But it will happen. It has to. I desire it. I prefeer to go alone :ore with ew: ;)I am just looking forward to doing hatever i want when i want to..with no judgement from anyone..or atleast i wont care cuz who do i know in spain? exactly.
anways. to my loyal followers ;)... i encourage to write at a moment you are happy and/or content so when you re read it, you relive a good moment as opposed to a"maple dick" moment(yah, these things really happen to me)
early christmas present.
7 years ago